Vibe Night! Party in Cheongdam
So I make my (not so triumphant) return to blogging. By simply writing this, I hope to dissolve the fears of any of my friends or family who may be wondering if any harm has come to me. I am fine, though I am starting to feel a tad flummoxed from bouncing from one time zone to another. The bottom line is, life is fairly stable for the moment. I have just returned from a brief stint in Thailand and relishing being back in the land of kimchee and tak kalbi.
I doubt that anyone has really been keeping up with this journal in my prolonged absence from it, but in that time, I feel as if I’ve undergone a wide degree of changes within myself. If I were to use the phrase “I’ve found myself”, it would sound trite and cliche. However, that is the best way I can think to describe my new mind state. The confusion I once had about the role I am currently playing, my past mistakes, my furture aspirations…none of this seems to plague me anymore. And dare I say it, I’m having fun! In fact, shortly after the above photo was taken, I somehow ended up on stage and dancing for 15 minutes or so, all of which ended up being shown on M-Net(Korea’s MTV). I guess I’m doing the opposite of what I was instructed to do (keep a low profile), yet, I no longer care.
Whereas in my past, I often felt the need to bite my tounge with my thoughts and at times, even feared what would happen if I spilled all that I thought on this journal, I now no longer fear any repercussions. The sad thing is, it seems to have taken so much loss for me to finally gain so much inside myself.
I have Hostage & Rescue school to attend in Quantico, VA and after that, I am taking a much needed vacation. I’ll see everyone (who is in GA) on May 27 and you can expect me to update with much more openess (though still observing rules of OPSEC) and frequency.